almost there

2014 is only hours away... Not one of my children called me for Christmas, my fault I reckon. Sorry dad, know I did that too.

condition: feet and ankles and even some leg are swollen almost as soon as I get up. fungus is still popping out here n there, who knows where that's going to lead.

 I apparently coughed hard enough to blow out some blood vessels in my eyes... now I seem to have a blister type of thing on the outside of my eyeball. Will go have that looked at after Vicki has made it back home.

My breathing can be heard unless I'm just sitting or laying. I can't seem to cough up any flem, should be drinking lots more water, but... ;truthfully, I'm getting pretty disgusted with it all.

I'm going to have to let go of all of it, and the hobo in me is ready to just do it. Tools, boats, fishing, guns, reloading tools,... everyone keeps saying no, don't do it, but I know it's part of those lessons in life that we each have to learn on our way back to the Father.

I'm actually not really 'down' , I don't see this as scary or unfair or anything but normal. Oh, sure, I'll miss my grand-kids and my sons n daughters, but I believe I'll still be able to see them and perhaps even aid them from the other side.

My grandfather Harris died @ 65 years old.  Everyone called him 'pop Harris' ...
..... just musing.\